Do you feel like you're alone? No one loves you? Like the world has swallowed you up but you still want to fight. When you fight but it feels so hard, it makes you wonder who you're really fighting for. 

I think many people feel this way. Many people feel neglected because they feel alone. That no one loves them. That everyone is against them. But should we feel that way every time we feel like the weather is not in our favor? The Word of God has an answer to this feeling.

I've been hearing a lot of news lately about Korean actors and actresses committing suicide. It's not just rampant in Korea but all over the world, but because I love Korean dramas, I see a lot of news like this on my feeds. And it's really sad to think that most of them are professionals and are still young but they are suffering from depression so they committed suicide.

I'm not invalidating the feelings of those who commit suicide. I also know that many will say, 

"You don't feel what people who are depressed feel, so you can't understand."

Yes, it's true that I probably don't reach the point where I have such lingering thoughts in my life, but I have also felt very depressed, especially during the time when I didn't have a proper relationship with the Lord. I remember it being so dark. I felt so weak. I felt so alone. I wanted to get out of the darkness I was in, but there it was, like there was no escape. I was so down and I felt so empty. I was like, I was working but it was pointless. It felt like I just woke up every day but it felt pointless. I wanted to run but I didn't know where to go. It's hard, but I thank God because He allowed me to cope.

There are also times in my life when I just cry to Him while asking why. 

Why is this happening to me? Why am I having such a hard time even though I am achieving everything I want? Why is it like that?

But He was silent. I didn't hear any response. I felt like He had just abandoned me. That my situation would never change. I felt like I was trapped. I couldn't get out of the situation I was in.

Then I decided to just go home. It happened so quickly. The process of my return home was so smooth that it felt like that was exactly what I was supposed to do. Then after I got home, after a few months I was drawn to the Bible. I love to read, but I hadn't read it yet. Then something seemed to draw me to read it. Then after that, that's when I met Him.

My life has changed. My way of looking at the situation I was in has changed. It feels like all the weight I was carrying has gone. I feel lighter. There are still times in my life when I feel very sad, but because I know the sacrifice Jesus made for people like me, I still feel every day that someone loves me even though I don't deserve it. That the love He shows me is enough to make me strong every day. That His validation is what matters, not what people validate about me.

I know that in a world dominated by social media, validation is a big deal. But for me, when I met the Lord, that's what matters. So I pray that if that's what you're going through, I want you to know that Jesus loves you. He sacrificed so that we could be saved. And now that we have a chance to turn to Him, let's grab that chance and I'm sure you won't regret choosing Him. Just like He chose to save us. 

If you feel like you're alone and no one loves you, join me in this prayer...

Almighty God, thank You so much for your love. Thank You so much for sending us Your only Begotten Son so that we could feel true love. A love that we cannot feel from anyone but only from You. Thank you so much Lord. You deserve the highest praise, worship and thanksgiving in the name of our beloved Jesus, Amen.

Thank you very much for reading. I pray that you will continue to feel the love of the Lord every day of your life.