Have you ever felt a time when it seemed like you were the only one praising the Lord? How did that make you feel? Have you ever thought about why you need to insist on something good for someone, while noticing that what they are doing is not as significant as reading the Word of the Lord? Because of this, did you also feel weakness and sorrow, or perhaps disappointment toward the person you thought would join you in praising the Lord? The Bible speaks about those who feel this way.

To be honest, this is how I feel right now. Every day, I ask the Lord for help to do my best so that I do not forget to think of and worship Him daily. Because if I were to rely solely on myself to do this, I wouldn't be able to, so I need the guidance and strength of the Lord in my faith.

I'm just really sad and disappointed today because of my spouse. We're both Christians, but I actually got to know the Lord first. It's true that there are times when someone seems to waver in their faith, but for me, we should support each other to strengthen our faith, not just have one person always leading. 

In our case, I'm always the one taking the lead, and sometimes it feels draining because I feel like I'm the only one wanting to know the Lord while he's just going along with it.

I can't explain what I'm feeling, it's mixed emotions because I want to cry, I want to get mad at him, and I'm really sad and disappointed. So I just prayed to the Lord and asked for forgiveness because I shouldn't be feeling this way. I kind of calmed down a bit, which is a sign for me to talk to him. Honestly, I was already crying at the thought of confronting him because sometimes I end up saying hurtful things, and I think that's what I said to my husband earlier.

I told him that I was disappointed because why do I still have to push him to read the Bible when it should be automatic for us if he really is Born Again. I also said that it's not good for him to only worship on Sundays, like, if he has time to play on his game consoles, he should also make time to praise the Lord. He should also be leading the two of us because it's draining to see him looking like he has no energy when I invite him to worship. I'm really disappointed because what he tells others makes it seem like he's close to the Lord, but I don't see that when it's just the two of us. I don't even see him praying alone, I only catch him praying when we're about to eat or before going to bed, so I'm truly disappointed.

I'm not perfect in how I approach and praise God, but for me, if you say you love the Lord, you should also make an effort to show that love, just like how you show others that it's important for you to watch on social media or play on the game console every day. I was really disappointed, but of course, he's my husband, so I just prayed for him and asked the Lord for forgiveness. It's sad to see this kind of thing in him. It's not something to be proud of, and honestly, it's embarrassing to the Lord, and it caused some tension between us.

Right now, after I talked to him, I don't know if he just thought about it or really felt it, but I told him to reflect on what he did. He admitted that he was at fault and that he shouldn't have acted like that in front of the Lord, but I pray that he truly sees in his heart how important it is to praise God. When he says he loves God, it should be genuine, and he should show it to the Lord, not just empty words without any meaning. Not just noise without any sense. Because we should always remember that when we don't want to or we're too lazy to praise God, we're not rejecting the people around us; we're rejecting the Lord, so we should be ashamed of that.

After a few hours, my spouse was able to reflect and I saw that he truly understood. We talked again and embraced tightly while I thanked the Lord for reconciling us and for him understanding my point. We should continue to pray for our loved ones to draw closer and to follow the will of the Lord.

And for those who are going through what I experienced today, please join me in a short prayer. 

Great Father, our beloved Lord, thank You so much for the life You have given us and our loved ones. Lord, forgive us if we are feeling emotionally tired. Give us strength to do what You want us to do and to bring our loved ones closer to You. Shine in our lives so that our loved ones can see that You are the only one we want to follow and serve, so that they can also feel the joy of serving You. We lift all of this to You, in the name of our Lord Jesus, Amen.

Thank You for reading. To God be all the glory!!!